I wanted to interject some thoughts here after this introduction to Jay in the “Getting Personal” writing last week. There’s been so much flooding into me when re-reading these words. Now, 16 years and seemingly a lifetime has passed, and my understanding has deepened on so many levels. But nothing compares to the incredible pull I felt in my Spirit in these beginning emails. The “I felt violated” feeling that Jay expressed is what I was feeling. When you are in God’s supernatural realm, where He creates these relationships, you can be sure to, as Jay says, “feel”. I didn’t have words for what was happening at the time. It took some time for me to be able to express what was working in me. Perhaps you’ve had the same experience. What I would like to say to you now is that it’s okay. Letting Jesus have His way with us is not going to “feel” like anything we have ever experienced here on earth. But allowing it to happen is the only way that He can teach us what He’s after. And rest assured He knows what He’s doing and He’s in control. We’re just along for the ride. We get to be Lovers in training.
Reading Jay’s words about relationship was/is like balm to my soul. How I long for that kind of intimacy, that kind of closeness. Not even aware of it so much until it’s in my face.
While Jay’s style of communicating was/is challenging to me, the content zings me. Here is a person entering conversation talking about Love – God’s Love – coming thru us in a very real and intimate way for other people. Not in any commonly understood ideological way. Pure passion. We bypassed the “getting to know you” small talk and went straight to the heart of it. The heart of God. That still takes my breath away.
Jay took Jesus seriously. He saw that God was after intimacy, and made that possible by what Jesus did for us. By the blood of Jesus we are healed, blessed, safe, protected. When we START from that place, and stay in that place – believing and remembering who we are and what’s ours in Christ – we are capable of living in His intimacy. That is the end product of what Jesus did for Us – we get to participate with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit in their supernatural realm, in Their Love.
Next week I’ll go back into the book. This is all I have for now.